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Lindsay Yurcaba

Her

I hate my life, I should have known
That you'd love her, leave me, alone
Why I ever thought you'd love me
I, myself will never know
Drowning in my tears of pain
I try not to let it show

I know it's not her fault you love her
But I can't hide my hate for her right now
I've lived in her shadow for as long as I remember
Alone, unloved, yet surviving somehow

When she told me that you still loved her
I thought I'd die right there and then
The happiness in her voice, a knife
Cutting through my soul, my skin

I didn't realize how much I loved you
The pain I felt was strong, disabling
All I could see was the smile on her face
The anger, ripping, tearing, nauseating

I know I won't stop loving you ever
No matter how much I cry
I don't know if I can ever forgive her
No matter how hard I try

Sitting here now I don't know how to feel
Sadness, Hatred, Despair, I'm not sure
Why does this always happen to me
This is a pain that no one deserves